Conditions

I didn't realize how much I valued it till I met him. They say "you don't know love until you've set your conditions" It took guy C's lack of consideration to guy Q's harsh words to refine my list. They say "lists are overrated", I say the lack of it leads to more pain than…

Questioning

They say it is part of our nature, the foundation of what makes us human, what makes us relate to one another. We all have questions; why am I, what could have I, how could you... Questions we may never get answers to and those who do, boy aren't you lucky. A million questions fill…

Daily schedule

6 am: pillow soaked, skin inflamed by salty tears, mind distraught... 12 pm: body in fetus position, back burning in the hot sunrays piercing through the window, mind absent in hope to regain composure... 6pm: feet close to electric heat source, candy on tongue, mind indulging in thoughts of a better tomorrow. Muscles slightly tense,…

Morning

Hands shivering, heart pounding, the sun no where to be found, Pillow soiled, eye lids involuntarily shut, stinging headache, All mornings have been like this, spells lasting more than others. Prolonged bathroom breaks, mirror avoidance, silent echoes of silent cries, Noting down emotions, 8 consecutive weeks of putting on a brave face holding on to…

Dear 25 year old me

You took a gamble and gave hope other shoot, left everything that seemed promising to return to a place that left you wondering if you were fit to function. Whenever I look at you, I see a young woman trying to defy the odds. I see a person trying to exercise her fully functioning prefrontal…

Open book

Sitting on my bed thinking about life and how things work. I can't help but wonder if we'll all go through similar experiences at some point in our lives. Will we all experience loneliness? loneliness so deep that you can't pin point when it started. Will we all experience confusion? The inability to distinguish life's…

Be Still

Stillness:the absence of movement or sound.A calm, quiet, motionless state. In a fast-paced world where lies travel faster than truths and harsh words faster than words that soothe,We all ought to learn the art of being still,The skill of having ears that filter the words we are fed and the habit of keeping our mouths…

Writing

Writing, the art of putting thoughts and ideas down on a canvas; physical or digital. A skill taught to an infant, essential for effective communication, used by all who have the ability to see and limbs to write. Writing, the number one tool used by those unable to verbally express themselves, Writing, the go to…

Description

How would you describe life? Life to me is the act of loving one's existence, being one with one's feelings, emotions, body and soul. Life is making a conscious choice to carry on despite the hurdles that lay ahead. It's being okay with the idea that you may not be okay but still strive to…

Limbo

Hanging in the balance, seeking an emotion any besides sorrow, Hanging in a limbo, recalling memories that shouldn't have been, Hanging by a thin thread, hope pain love bliss, hanged to the ceiling lifeless, Somethings come easy, a smile a grin, a mere facial muscle spasm, Other things arrive with T's & C's, racing mind…