Reveal

Take off your mask,Let the sun shine on your face. Let my eyes meet your gaze.Days have gone by and I'm hoping this isn't just a phase and that after a few years I won't be forced to erase memories of moments spent together and now fading away like smoke on ashtrays, cigarette and mouth…

A Letter to Eros

Dear Eros,I once knew you and you knew meWe knew each other not so long ago. I remember how it felt,Getting butterflies at the sound of a voice,Checking my phone every few minutesAnd discovering that having an ounce of extra melanin would not suffice to camouflage the blush on my cheeks. But you know that…

Black love

I know it has been a while. Currently struggling to get myself to write, so I'll share something I wrote a while back. Hope you like it... Held in his arms, her safe haven. The dynamics of their union, written in pen as a Ying & Yang - opposing forces that work together. Behind close…

Dear you

It's 3am in my city, have been struggling to stay asleep but I'm trying. This feeling that you are near is excitingly overwhelming. I wonder if I am what you prayed for? If my fears and insecurities won't make you rethink your interest. It's dark in this part of the world, trying to not dwell…

Conditions

I didn't realize how much I valued it till I met him. They say "you don't know love until you've set your conditions" It took guy C's lack of consideration to guy Q's harsh words to refine my list. They say "lists are overrated", I say the lack of it leads to more pain than…

To you

With each day that passes, my longing grows. My favorite part of thinking about you are the uncontrollable grins God & my close friends see when I speak about you. I wish you knew how intentional I have become about your well-being and success, I pray for you. They go something along these lines: Who…

Bail

Heart worn on sleeve, trigger warnings given before she speaks, yet you victimize her making her feel like she was ill. Can you not see the strength it took to love you when her world is falling apart, To support and come to your aid with the little strength she harbored in her heart. She…

Daily schedule

6 am: pillow soaked, skin inflamed by salty tears, mind distraught... 12 pm: body in fetus position, back burning in the hot sunrays piercing through the window, mind absent in hope to regain composure... 6pm: feet close to electric heat source, candy on tongue, mind indulging in thoughts of a better tomorrow. Muscles slightly tense,…

Morning

Hands shivering, heart pounding, the sun no where to be found, Pillow soiled, eye lids involuntarily shut, stinging headache, All mornings have been like this, spells lasting more than others. Prolonged bathroom breaks, mirror avoidance, silent echoes of silent cries, Noting down emotions, 8 consecutive weeks of putting on a brave face holding on to…

Avoidance

Common chain of thought; okay smile don't let them worry, when asked say "I'll be fine" Mask your inability to write, something you once found pleasure in. Hide your new developed sense of hopeless, remember don't make them worry... Keep it to yourself, no one wants to deal with expressions of emotional distress. The world…